This is a blog about a year & What one year can do to someone.
- The challenges
- The failures
- The lost love
- Forgotten friendships
- The most painful of them all, loss of hope
The past year has literally sped through everything I thought I knew about a year. I do not understand how 365 days can feel like a month. I know for a fact I am not the only one who feels lost and a bit overwhelmed with thoughts of time running out. Its true, when years are passing you by and age is adding up on you, we can all be filled with so many emotions. This is my story, my thoughts, and my blog. I get to sit behind a computer screen and share with a few good eyes what 2017 has showed me.
This world is so big, and it has so many dark corners and people walking around with so many faces. How do you navigate in a world where people are not always able to show kindness? Every place you look, you see a smile with fangs sticking out ready to suck your blood dry. I am not making this up, I have seen it. So many people who in your face smile and show you love, but the second you turn around; A knife is being pushed in your back by that same sweet smile you thought belonged to a friend, a sister, a brother or a cousin. How I wish the evil around us showed up in bodies of strangers, but instead the devil is the one we look at with longing eyes and open arms screaming I LOVE YOU to deaf ears.
Letting go of negative people, and false love is how I plan on ending 2017. I did not come on here to write so many words tonight, no, not me, that is not my plan. I only want to leave you all with a new hope, a new faith, and a way of escape. I have ran away from God so many times this year, and it has gotten me to a place I love to call nowhere. I do not have anything outside of him and over and over, I see it, but I have been so childish in my faith. I am done running from God. I want 2018 to be something new. I want peace, I want so much peace and love and good people around me. People who mean me no harm, genuine love. The kind you can find among people who have decided to also make God the center of who they are. God willing you reader and I get to still be friends and be the salt of the earth together for Gods Kingdom.
I have lost people in 2016 who I thought I would see again in 2017, but when that did not happen, I figured this is it, it was not in Gods plan for me to be around those people. I have lost people in 2017, who I know deep within myself that we are never gonna be the way we used to be again. I had so many emotions about all of this, but now, I just leave it in the hands of him who takes care of me, God. I have made goals and failed to reach them, made friends and lost them, so many challenges and tests that I have both failed and passed. That is what 2017 did to me. I am leaving all my pain and failures in the past, I am not taking anything that was toxic with me into my future.
GOODBYE 2017, GOODBYE OLD FRIENDS, GOODBYE BAD HABITS, GOODBYE OLD WAYS, GOODBYE TO MY CHILDISH FAITH.
I AM NO LONGER A SLAVE TO SIN, FEAR OR YOU
IN THE NAME OF JESUS, I AM A CHILD OF GOD